August has felt like the longest month EVER, and I know it's not just me because I've seen several popular tweets about it as well and I'm so glad I've finally figured out why this month has felt so weird. I suppose it means there's been a lot of things I could write about but it also meant for a good, long portion of the month I was completely broke. Not so fun.

This month I started my new job, which was a massive change for me and I have decided that I love office jobs because I can eat whenever I want and listen to music whilst I'm working. THIS IS THE LIFE. It's been so lovely coming from retail, where your every move is monitored and you're told when you can eat. Plus, doing social media as my job is the long-term goal so I wake up everyday like...I can't believe I'm actually in a field I want to be in. I also can't believe I'm managing to get up at 6.30 every morning to do said job. Also - I used to hate coffee. Now I cannot go a working day without at least 2. What has happened to me?

Also this month I met a blogger who has now become one of my bestest friends ever - Rosie. I'd briefly spoken to her before and then she messaged me like "hey you live here right" and it turns out she was coming to the exact area where I live, which was mad. We had the cutest day out in Culross and then a dinner and drinks evening in Edinburgh which was so much fun and now we're planning a trip to France in December. Our relationship has escalated quickly.

I've been trying to drink a lot more water this month, and pretty much succeeding, because I really want to see a massive change in my skin. I've been using some exciting new products which I briefly mentioned in this months Favourites and lemon water has become an essential in my day. My skin has completely shit the bed this month due to a neverending period that I'm having as a result of getting my Depo injection a few days too late. If you want to know what hell feels like, this is it. My skin has been recycling hormonal acne for weeks now, and every time I think it's improving even slightly, I get about 6 new, sore spots. It's been a nightmare and I kinda feel like crying over it all the time but hey ho.

So I know it's only August but the Blogtober preparations are in full swing - I've planned all my posts and written out a good chunk of them. September is going to when I really turn up the heat and try to mass produce all my Blogtober posts alongside keeping my current content rolling. It'll be interesting, to say the least. I feel very on track at the moment but I can't help but feel guilty if I can't manage to plan or write every single day; I'm so determined to make Blogtober amazing that I can't seem to let myself take any breaks. I know that if I stop trying to plan and write in advance, it'll all catch up with me and it'll go to shit and I won't be able to keep up with it. Here we go!

September is going to be so exciting - on the 1st I'm a bridesmaid at a family wedding which I'm too excited for because I get to dress up all nice. On the 15th, I'm travelling down to Birmingham to meet some girls that have become so incredibly important to me and I can't wait to spend a weekend getting drunk and being stupid and taking lots of photos with them. I think I'll probably write a post or something on the whole weekend, I considered even vlogging it but maybe I'll play it safe and stick with Instagram stories. We'll see!

How was your August?



Is it just me, or has August felt like the longest month ever? I genuinely feel like it's been August for about a year now and that's possibly because I haven't been paid yet so the past few days have been hell-ish due to my being poor but still wanting to go do things. Note to self: be better with your money. Note to past employers: don't underpay people.

There's a few things that I've been really excited about and loving this month, mostly skincare because my skin has decided to become a little bitch this month and there's not a day that goes past when I don't have at least one massive painful spot. Ah, joys. The first thing is a toner, which I never thought I would ever use because they don't work right?? Wrong, they absolutely do and this one has changed my life. It has rosewater and witch hazel in it which burned my skin a little on the first application and used to dry out my skin a little, but the more I use it the less it burns and the the dry patches have completely disappeared. It has helped more than any other product to help remove the marks left over by spots and it leaves me with such smooth skin than I actually look forward to putting this on my face. It doesn't really help to get rid of current spots but that's not a massive issue for me. Plus, it was actually relatively cheap and the bottle will last you a little while.

The next skincare thing is kind of a last-minute addition and there will be a full post on it coming within the next month but I'm so excited about it that I couldn't leave it out. I suppose this'll be kind of like a first impressions review because I've only used it a few times but so far I am loving it. I was complaining about my skin on Twitter a while back (because what else is Twitter for?) and someone slid into my DMs offering to send me the DermaTX Microdermabrasion brush. I'd had one microdermabrasion session at a salon before so I was like HELL YEAH. It took me a few days to take this out the box and actually start using it, but now that I have I'm like, why didn't I start using this earlier?! It basically hefty exfoliates your face, and there's also a cleanser head for the brush. I've used it a handful of times and I'm already seeing amazing results so watch out for the full review post, which will include before and after photos!

As I'm posting this, it's 3 days until I'm a bridesmaid and I am so excited to wear my pretty dress and look pretty. As a gift for being a bridesmaid, I was given this gorgeous Pandora bracelet that only leaves my wrist when I'm showering. I don't even take it off when I'm sleeping because I love it so much. It's silver too so it matches my little old elephant bracelet too. I remember last year I really wanted some sentimental jewellery that I could wear all the time and now I have about 3 pieces that I wear permanently. Two of them are elephants. I wonder what my favourite animal is.
The last thing is a fashion thing! Look at me go, pretending I know how to fashion blog. I did a bad thing and went shopping using my New Look store card but it was absolutely worth it because I started my Autumn wardrobe and I'm obsessed with it all. Mostly these yellow stripy culottes, because I liked the look of them but didn't think they'd actually look nice on me, but they do! Even my mum liked them, which I really wasn't expecting because she never likes the clothes I pick. I have already dressed these up and down and I really just don't want to wear anything else ever.

I'm gonna try and talk about a musician I recently discovered and fell in love with but I am absolutely not a music blogger so god knows how this is gonna go. I was at the Fringe a few nights ago and we were just wandering when we came across a musician busking, Oisin & Malachy, and normally you stay for like one song and then leave but I was so captivated by his music that I stayed until the end of his set, which I never do. I didn't have enough cash on me to buy his album which I'm kicking myself over because I need his music on hand to listen to constantly. I have found this site which lets you buy his album En Route and also his first CD which is Pup, and I have bought both of them. My favourite song from both is called Radiator and it's so funky and catchy and it may not be your style, but the rest of his music is very indie-like which is also my style. Oh, and he's Australian so listening to him speak normally was also a treat.

What have you been loving through August?



My room is not that Insta-worthy, all white, picturesque kind of room you see plastered all over Pinterest - quite the opposite. Everything is mismatching and cluttered but I feel like it just adds to the cosiness. Without the novelty bedsheets, mountain of pillows and makeshift wardrobe bookshelf, it just wouldn't feel like my room.

I keep various quotes and pieces of wall art around my room; I love to support small businesses and buy most of my prints from Etsy or other Twitter shops. I frame them and either keep them dotted around my room or up on my walls. I'm the type of person that is highly influenced by my surroundings and having some empowering and motivational pieces around me definitely makes a difference.

I also have a few blackboards that I rarely write on and if I do, whatever is on it stays on it for months and months. The one next to my bed is more of an organiser - I used to write my shifts on there or what I had to do for my blog that week. Up until yesterday, it still had my shifts from May on there. I should really start using it more. The second blackboard is more of a plain one and it had a Christmas tree on there for an abnormally long time. For the past few months it has had 'DRINK MORE WATER' plastered on there, which absolutely did not work.

I like to have a lot of little meaningful pieces places around; the little dog teddy that stays permanently in my bed looks like my dog who passed away at the beginning of this year and the chocolate roses in the vase with my fake flowers were given to me by my boyfriend on Valentines Day and have probably gone off now but I refuse to throw them away or eat them. I have a LOT of elephant trinkets, all of which were gifts from the people closest to me. There's one from my boyfriend, a ring holder from his mum and a 3D picture from my mum. I also keep a dreamcatcher up there, partly because it looks pretty and partly because there will always be a piece of me that thinks it will actually work.

I have a little photo frame on my bedside table with an old photo of me and my dog and a photo of me and my boyfriend in it - I love having lots of photos around to remember all of my favourite memories. I recently used some photo printing services to print of some more of my recent memories; I used Printiki for the majority of them. The website lets you put all the photos you want into one folder, which it saves for you to return to and print off later. I've pinned my favourites up on a wire board from Primark in a very Pinterest-style way, which my boyfriend mocked me for, and I'm looking to get a photo album for the rest. Printiki is so easy to use and the photos are all perfect quality, so I would highly recomment it and will likely use it  again in the future because I just keep making memories. They share lots of inspiration for what to do with their photos over on their Instagram!

So although I can't take perfect bedsheet flatlays because they're not white and I can't blog from my desk because there's too much on it, I love my bedroom. It's where I spend most of my time and I love the cosiness of it.

What do you love most about your room?



Welcome to my new little 'spread the luuurve' project that I'm going to be doing monthly - there seems to have been a bit of controversy in what people post recently so I'm going to round up a whole big list of my favourite bloggers/posts each month for you to go and snoop on; fashion, beauty AND lifestyle posts because I read everything and enjoy everything.

Thinking of the first person to talk about was easy - Lauren Evie. (Didn't mean to rhyme that). Her blog content is so beautifully written and she covers topics that I've not really seen spoken about anywhere else. A personal favourite of mine is her Prescription Literature post. I have this bookmarked on my phone for inspiration for what to read next; I think that's one of her most popular posts so I'm sure you've seen it already, but if you haven't you absolutely need to get your arse over there and read it. Another post I have saved from Lauren is about Feminist Sites and the best ones to go to for information. I do identify as a feminist but I do not proclaim to know everything there is to know about the issue, and I don't think there's anything wrong with admitting that. So it's helpful to have a little list of informative sites that I can go to in order to learn more! I eventually just bookmarked her entire blog because she keeps bringing out incredible posts and I keep bookmarking all of them.
NEXT UP is actually one of my close personal friends but even if she wasn't she'd be included in this. Bettie wrote a post on conspiracy theories that I am completely obsessed with and keep going back to read like every second day hoping there will be more there - I have been told she is doing a second installment so I'm checking up on her blog like everyday waiting for it. I'm a massive conspiracy theory fan and I'm also very influenced by other people so everything she writes I'm like IT'S TRUE. If you love conspiracy theories, or even if you don't, you will absolutely love this post.
Another one of my bestest blogging friends that I have to include is Rosie, she is one of the funniest people I've ever had the privilege of meeting and this comes across so well in her Failing at Adulthood post. I don't consider myself an adult but I was basically cackling at every single point in this post because somehow it still rang true to me. I love when bloggers tackle real life and it's so inspiring to know that other people completely suck at life and it's not just you.
A post that was retweeted onto my timeline recently was a First Trimester Update by IssyBelleFox. This is hands down one of the funniest posts I've ever read in my life. I'm not pregnant and never have been but I could still appreciate all the points she made, it's amazingly honest and if all her posts are as witty and hilarious as this one, it'll be a fun ride for those of us who aren't experiencing the Weeto experience (go read the post).
The final one for this post is by Ashleigh Hitter - who told me to include her but I looked at her blog and actually loved one of her posts anyway so here she is! Her Spending Ban post is giving me serious motivation to save money - I always struggle with spending too much money every month but could never really find a post with realistic tips, UNTIL NOW. Her tips aren't completely unrealistic to put in place and they're actually what I needed to hear because I didn't even consider some of them.

So there we go, there's some of my favourite bloggers and favourite posts from August! I'm going to be writing one of these posts a month so if you want to tag me in any posts you think I'll like or any of your new posts, that would be great! I look forward to reading everyone's posts and rounding up my favourites to spread some positivity each month.

What are some of your favourite posts this month?



It has been SO LONG since I've done a tag post, like a good six months at least. One of the things I'm going to start doing to make my blog a more enjoyable space for me is these tag posts, I might keep them reserved until I need a post and haven't had time to prepare another one, or maybe I'll just publish them willy-nilly because I can do that because this is my blog.

I don't actually think anyone tagged me in this but I'm doing it anyway - and I'm also not going to tag anyone specific, but if you want to answer these questions too then feel free! Leave me a link to your answers because I'd love to be nosy and learn more about everyone else too.

1. What's your favourite candle scent?

- Anything Christmas or vanilla. I love Autumn because that's when I can start buying my Christmas scents, and vanilla works all year round. I have a Christmas candle and 2 vanilla ones lit right now.

2. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister?

- Emilia Clarke because she seems like such a funny person and I'd maybe get to go to the Game of Thrones set with her and meet some of the cast.

3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother?

- Probably a comedian like James Acaster because that'd be hilarious, probably a bit annoying but mostly hilarious.

4. How old do you think you'll be when you get married?

- Hopefully mid-twenties, but you have no idea how things are going to work out in the future.

5. Do you know a hoarder?

- I don't think I do, unless you count myself? (I'm joking, I'm not a hoarder, I'm just sentimental.)

6. Can you do the splits?

- Nope! No matter how hard I tried, I never got there.

7. How old were you when you learned to ride a bike?

- Probably about 5 or 6, I think.

8. How many oceans have you swam in?

- Ooh I actually don't know. Probably just one because I tend to prefer pools. Less fish.

9. How many countries have you visited?

- Quite a lot, I was a well-travelled little child. I've been to Toronto, Lake Garda, lots of places in Spain, I've visited Vienna as a child too and, most recently, Budapest!

10. Is anyone in your family in the army?

- Nope!

11. What would you name your daughter if you had one?

- Emilia Isabella. It's my favourite name ever and I actually don't even want to share it in case someone steals it.

12. What would you name your son if you had one?

- I love Noah, but I don't have a favourite boys name. I prefer thinking about girls names because it's like "what name would I prefer for myself?"

13. What's the worst grade you got on a test?

- I failed my psychology exam because I didn't sit it...Apart from that, I failed a level of Biology but passed the level below so I didn't fail the exam, if that even makes sense.

14. What was your favourite TV show as a kid?

- How young are we talking? I loved PB&J as a little kid, then Totally Spies, then probably Hannah Montana.

15. What did you dress up as on Halloween when you were 8?

- Most likely a witch. Or Daphne from Scooby Doo, my mum and I both dressed up as her one year but her costume was better because she got a wig.

16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series?

- I've read the whole Hunger Games series and none of Twilight, and I'm not sure how many Harry Potter books I've read but it's definitely not them all.

17. Would you rather have an American accent or a British accent?

- British! Sometimes I hate my Scottish accent but other people seem to love it, so I'll stick with my own.

18. Did your mother go to university?

- She did not, and neither am I!

19. Are your grandparents still married?

- 50 years strong.

20. Have you ever taken karate lessons?

- I did Judo for a little while but I'm definitely more of a dance kind of person.

21. Do you know who Kermit the frog is?

- The Kermit drinking tea meme is the best one.

22. What’s the first amusement park you’ve been to?

- I think it was Disneyland, but I hate rides so I doubt I went on anything other than It's A Small World.

23. What language, besides your native language, would you like to be fluent in?

- Italian or French! I tried to teach myself Italian but gave up and did really well in French in school but didn't take it any further.

24. Do you spell the colour as grey or gray?

- Grey.

25. Is your father bald?

- Yes he is, and I'm probably on my way judging by the amount of hair that falls out in the shower.

26. Do you know triplets?

- I do, I used to be best friends with 2/3 of them.

27. Do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook?

- I have actually seen neither of them!

28. Have you ever had Indian food?

- Indian food is possibly my favourite, I could eat garlic naan bread every single day.

29. What’s the name of your favourite restaurant?

- I lovev GBK, I dream about the skinny fries and chicken burger daily.

30. Have you ever been to Nando's?

- Once, I forgot to ask for my chicken burger without mayo and haven't been back since.

31. Do you belong to any warehouse stores (Costco, Macro, Bookers etc.)?

- I don't, but my mum and I are desperate to get into Costco and explore.

32. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender?

- Cameron, as I've been told.

33. If you have a nickname, what is it?

- My dad used to call me Loulabelle (hence the blog name), he still calls me Lou and my boyfriend's favourite nickname for me is Spud because I have a potato shaped head.

34. Who’s your favourite person in the world?

- You've caught me on a good day so I'm gonna say my boyfriend. Other than him, definitely my mum.

35. Would you rather live in the countryside or in the city?

- Right now, city. Because I'm getting into digital marketing, most opportunities are in cities. Once I settle down, a countryside would be lovely because I want SO MANY DOGS.

36. Can you whistle?

- I can whistle breathing in but not breathing out...

37. Do you sleep with a nightlight?

- Nope! I need complete darkness, even the 'off' light on my TV keeps me awake if I can see it.

38. Do you eat breakfast every morning?

- I do, but not always before I get to work. I almost always eat it when I get there because I value sleep over breakfast.

39. Do you take any pills or medication daily?

- Not anymore, since ditching the pill.

40. What medical conditions do you have?

- None that I know of, apart from hay fever but that's not exactly awful.

41. How many times have you been to the hospital?

- None for myself, touch wood. A few times to visit other people but I generally dislike the hospital atmosphere so I don't like going.

42. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo?

- Many times, I have also seen Finding Dory which is such a good film.

43. Where do you buy your jeans?

- I'm not loyal to one place, and I generally hate wearing jeans so I don't buy them often. I have some from Tesco and Missguided that I wear all the time, but that's about it.

44. What’s the last compliment you got?

- It was probably my boyfriend telling me I looked nice yesterday when I actually made an effort with my makeup.

45. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning?

- Rarely! I remember the really weird or scary ones but usually forget them after about 20 minutes.

46. What flavour tea do you enjoy?

- I like just standard tea but I also like camomile and honey a LOT. I haven't tried many flavoured teas but I have a lot in my cupboard.

47. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own?

- Oh god, too many to count. And I wear...3 pairs.

48. What religion will you raise your children to practice?

- I wasn't raised to any religion so I think I'll do the same for mine, but if they want to then I won't stop them.

49. How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn’t real?

- About 9 or 10 I think, my neighbour told me and my parents were SO angry.

50. Why do you have a blog?

- Because I love writing and I love sharing my thoughts, feelings and recommendations in an online space that is fully my own. It's a hobby that provides a massive sense of fulfillment and pride, and I love the whole thing so much.

Again, if you do this tag, leave me a comment and let me know! Hope you enjoyed being nosy.


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This might be quite a tricky topic to tackle - I don't want to cause offense or insinuate anything or make people think I'm talking about them, but it's something that's been bugging me in many different ways and I need some sort of rant-based outlet. That's what my blog is for, after all.

I'm sure we've all fallen victim to jealousy within the blogging community, it's a natural emotion that comes with life and being a human being that knows how to feel emotions. I get jealous fairly easily, over a lot of things, but I rarely let it affect me or let it introduce some other negative emotions to my day. I think it comes with being in an industry that's full to the brim of other amazing content creators and opportunities and you just can't help but compare yourself to what they're doing and how well they seem to be doing.

For me, personally, I compare my photos, my content and my work with brands. Why are my photos not as good as theirs, when we have the same camera? How do they manage to think up all this original content? How do they get to work with so many amazing brands? It can really bring me down sometimes, it makes me not want to produce content because I feel like whatever mediocre idea I have, it wont live up to what other people are creating. Which is really stupid, because I create for myself because it's something I enjoy. I just find it so hard to think up ideas that I feel are good enough to begin creating, and because I'm me, I leave everything until the last minute and have to rush some ideas so that I have a post prepared for the next day. I've created a posting schedule now and I'm always ridiculously determined to stick to this schedule, no matter how difficult it is. I WILL publish new content on these specific days.


Jealousy can actually be a good thing, if you treat it right, which I try to do. Their content seems more interesting than mine, so I'm going to spend longer thinking up new ideas and trying to produce really amazing content. Their photos look nicer than mine, so I'm going to experiment with some new props, lighting and angles until I'm happy with them. They work with some really cool brands, so I'm going to pitch myself to some brands. I usually just wait for opportunities to fall into my inbox, but if I just grab the bull by the horns and reach out to others, who knows what'll happen. I used to be so embarrassed at the thought of contacting a brand but now, who cares? The only person that knows I've emailed them is me and them, so if they don't reply, why does it matter?

Turn jealousy into motivation and use it to better yourself, don't let it turn you into someone bitter who can't congratulate others or support them with their successes.

How do you feel about jealousy in blogging?



I did a poll on Twitter last week asking if anyone wanted to read about my experience with the Depo injection as a sort of follow-up post on my one about the pill and a lot of you said yes, so here we are. If you want to read my post about my experience with the pill, you can find it HERE. I've also asked a few other people to share their experiences on the injection, because I know that I like to hear the different sides to the different contraceptive methods, so I assumed everyone else would as well.

I've been on the Depo injection for about 5 months now, and compared to the pill it has been a walk in the park. On the pill I was this permanently angry, irritable dragon-type human that would just stomp around being angry at everything, and I didn't realise it was the pill doing it for a long time. Coming off it was the best decision I ever made, but deciding where to go next was slightly trickier. I considered the implant, but I'd heard so many horror stories of it being stuck in your arm and the doctor having to hack it out so I somewhat dismissed it. Also wasn't keen on something being stuck in my uterus, and I absolutely was not going to get another pill, so that left the injection. 

You don't have to worry about contraception for 12 weeks after you get it, and then you just pop along for your other one and that's another 12 weeks done. It does hurt your bum cheek and I do complain about it all day, and most of the next day, but it's bearable. Just don't get it late. I got my second one a few days later than I should've, and thankfully they could still give me it, but I have been on my period permanently since then. Some days it's light, some days it's heavy, every day it's hell. As for the other side effects, I've not had many. I do have quite a bit of acne at the minute but I think that's more related to the never ending period I'm having at the minute so hopefully when I get my next one (on time), it'll stop. My moods have improved by a million and now I'm only angry some of the time, but I'm slowly getting back to normal after a hellish few years on the devil pill.


After countless multiple week long periods and crippling cramps, I decided enough was enough and I need to seek some form of contraception to ease my periods. After being on the pill for a year or so I decided it was not the method for me as it regulated my periods but did not subside the cramps. I tried pain relief and prescription medication but nothing would ease the cramps which would often make me bed bound for days.

I looked at all the contraceptive methods and decided the depo injection was the better option for me as having an implant freaked me out as did the coil. The winning factor for the depo injection was the fact that there was a very high chance my periods could stop completely. So you can imagine my joy, when after the first injection my periods stopped completely and I never had period cramps again.

I think the depo injection is one of the best decisions I've ever made. I love that I do not have to take a pill everyday, I only have to visit my GP every three months. There was also a risk for me redeveloping a ovarian cyst I had previously had which required an operation. If this worries anyone I can say I have been using this form of contraception for a year and a half without occurring any issues. I also came across no side effects in comparison to the pill where my cramps actually got worse.


I have dabbled with the Depo injection since my late 20’s. Now 39 with a 5 month old I am back on it and I have to say that I have been affected by none of the possible side effects I was warned about. I never put weight on, in fact, I have occasionally lost weight on the injection, with really bewildered to my regular nurse.

I must admit though, throughout my mid to late 30’s I did take a year off the jab here and there. Just to make sure my body was still in good working order. It would usually take between 9 and 12 months for my periods to start up again. But they would start up normally, as they were before I started with the injection. I guess I am really lucky.

On a side note though, I do have a friend who has been diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis at 33, after being on the injection for a number of years. I don’t know if there is a confirmed connection, but they do test for it every so often, which raises alarm bells. That would be my only worry about staying on the injection, although I do try to take cod liver oil and calcium supplements in the hope that it will counteract any problems. I just find the jab so convenient, with a hectic lifestyle, as I genuinely believe I would be forgetful with taking a pill every morning. A small pinch in the fleshy bum area every three months is the easiest option for me.


Hi I'm Mia and I moved from the pill about 6 years ago now. I went for a discussion with the nurse in my practice about alternative options, I didn't want the coil and I was between the injection and the implant, I'm lazy so I wanted something I wouldn't have to remember so was leaning towards the implant but everyone has heard the horror stories of it not working etc, I voiced concerns to my nurse about this and she suggested two injections 10 weeks apart then have the implant fitted within the next two weeks as apparently it had shown good success in stopping all bleeding so that was what we did.

It did stop everything for me and then I had my implant fitted, I had no issues slight discomfort but it was done and sorted. For two years I was period free then I started to get some bleeding, after discussing my options my doctor changed my implant early to see if it would stop the bleeding again for me, changing it wasn't too bad, it had got stuck a little so required a bit of a scalpel to loosen it up but it was only a slight tug I could feel and no pain. The new one was immediately placed in so minimal scaring occurs. The second implant didn't stop my periods completely again but I do just have small irregular bleeds.

For me I choose this over remembering to take a pill. I'm actually having my third implant fitted in a few months time. I chose the implant over injection long term as the injection can effect fertility in future and takes longer for it to return.


The depo injection pretty much ruined my body. After the first month, my period disappeared and it stayed that way for the whole time I was on it. I mean, yeah, no period is great BUT you still get that groggy period feeling just without the blood.

After a couple of months on it I started to notice massive mood swings, which would always be accompanied by hot flashes and more often than not, I’d have a massive row with someone. The moment would pass and I’d be left feeling like a complete bitch, then tears followed shortly after. I couldn’t control my temper OR my appetite.

I was always a very small girl, 5ft, about a size 6/8. On the depo I quickly became a size 12, in a matter of months. I have no problem with weight gain, but it was a massive amount in a short space of time, and all I craved was junk food. I also lost all interest in sex, literally had no interest in it anymore. I came off it after a year, and went onto the pill and things did improve. The depo is not something I’d recommend to any girl, it’s just not worth the hassle.


The Depo-Provera jab. A true life saver, an intense weight-gainer, and yes, it stopped me getting pregnant for three months, but it also made me put on nearly three stone. So rude.

Although the ballooning of my body wasn't fun, it wasn't the worst of the side effects. I could write a book on the ones I was blessed with, which included mood swings, loss of my sex drive, and generally just being twice the size as before, but the one that has taken its toll the most, both physically and mentally, is that even though I'm ready to start trying to conceive, my body isn't.

Now, doing my research, although a little too late, I realise how common & difficult it is for our bodies to regain reproductive function after coming off the Depo-Provera jab, because this gift us ladies have has been suppressed the whole time, and it's heartbreaking to think how little information and knowledge was out there when I made the decision to skip the pill every day and take the "easier" option. Looking back, if I could rewind a year, I would definitely make that daily alarm reminding me to take my pill, instead of this reality I'm dealing with now. 

I hope some of you found this useful and informative - contraception is such a tricky topic but the more we discuss it and the effects of it, the more we'll be able to make informed decisions about what's right for us.

Have you ever tried the depo injection?



I've been wanting to discuss this book with someone ever since I finished it, but I'm the only one in my family that's read it so far and it's driving me crazy. I'm gonna start posting some book reviews on here, because I've grown to love reading again and sometimes you need to have a little conversation with yourself to make you feel better about a book. There will be spoilers in this post, so if you haven't read it yet, please click off now! 

Paula Hawkins

I was so excited about this book because of how much I loved The Girl On The Train, but I think Paula Hawkins definitely overdid it this time. There's SO many characters, it's hard to keep up with because it's written in a similar style to her first book - each chapter is from a different characters point of view. It was fine when it was 3 characters and you could keep track of it all, but when it's about 8 different characters and they're all jumbled around, things get pretty tricky.

It took a while for things to speed up in the novel, I can't really remember much that happened in Part 1 because I'm pretty sure absolutely nothing happened. It sped up a bit in Part 2 but overall, it wasn't a very shocking novel. It was quite disappointing compared to The Girl On The Train, where everything flowed nicely and the drama was well paced throughout. Hawkins definitely tried to squeeze too much in, there were too many subplots and irrelevant characters with irrelevant backstories, which is a shame because the overall idea of the book was so intruguing. 

The only part that made me fully gasp was the last sentence - when the killer is revealed to be someone other than who you thought it was. The killer's father took the blame for his sons actions, and the last sentence is basically just "He pushed her." I did audibly gasped but then was fully disappointed because that was it?! No more book?! I know it's good when a book ends on a cliffhanger because it adds to that mystery and frustration when you've finished it but in this case, no thank you. I would've loved a shock moment like that during the actual novel itself, rather than just have it tacked on at the end.

Overall, I was so disappointed with Into The Water. I loved the idea and I loved parts of the book, I loved Lena's character and the story behind Jules and Nel's fall-out was heartbreaking and gripping, but as a whole, it wasn't my cup of tea. 

Have you read this book yet?



I've been struggling to know what to post for a few days now, there was nothing I felt like writing and I just felt like I was completely demotivated. So I think it's time for a change. Today I am literally going to just type and see what comes out, I've had a lot on my mind over the past week and I really just don't feel like reviewing a product or writing about anything beauty and fashion related. I feel like maybe that's not me anymore.

I'm really, really struggling to produce new content. I can't seem to think up any ideas that have depth, everything falls flat when I go to plan out the main body of the post. I really don't understand why I seem to have lost my love for my blog and writing - I know that I'm completely exhausted because I've just started working full time so it could be to do with that. I was just so determined to post today to keep up with my schedule, but I wanted it to be something that would make me feel better. Usually all it takes is any sort of post to help, but I wouldn't have felt fulfilled posting about superficial things.

Lifestyle posts are the ones I find trickiest to write, I struggle to make them make sense and I basically end up in a big mess because nothing fits and the paragraphs aren't clear, but they also seem to be the ones that get the best response so in a way I also love writing them. I think my blog has very much become a flurry of posts that I think other people would find interesting, but you want to make sure that you enjoy writing and reading those posts too, and I don't. I just procrastinate so that I don't have to blog and I hate that, I want to love it and I want to want to post all the time. I want to go back to a time where I had too many ideas and was so excited about them all that I just wanted to post them all at once.

I'm not saying I want to stop posting about beauty and fashion, I suppose sometimes I enjoy them but right now I don't wanna be anywhere near those topics. I want to do more fun things, like tag posts, I haven't done a tag post in so long and I've been tagged in so many recently. I want to start doing book reviews because I've rekindled my love for reading, and I want to just get back to having fun with my blog. I've been so, almost professional with it and being like that sucks so I absolutely would not recommend it. Your blog should be your happy space full of fun things that you love, and I'm going to start working harder to make sure I love this little site.

I think this post was more for my benefit than yours - I wasn't sure what I wanted in terms of my blog and writing it all out helped me clarify which direction I want to go in. A FUN one. I hope you're all as excited as I am about the new content I'm going to start working on!



A few weeks ago, I ran out of my beloved Liz Earle Hot Cloth Cleanser and, for some reason, kept putting off repurchasing it. It was at that time that I decided to try out the Kiehls Ultra Facial Cleanser. I'd been getting on really well with the Ultra Facial Cream and Midnight Recovery Concentrate and wanted to see if other products lived up to the magic of those two.


I've always found photo props to be a bit of a tricky area, I don't really know how to make them look natural or pretty in photos so I used to just abandon them altogether. Recently, I've started investing a little more in my props and trying to get a bit more creative and I'm really enjoying my progress. Compared to my slightly dull photos from a few months ago, my new ones are a bit more interesting and sometimes I find them so pretty that I just sit and admire them. It's good to be proud of yourself!


I swear, Zoe Sugg could bring out a range of wooden spoons and I, amongst many others, would be running down to get my hands on it. She is massively influencial and I trust her opinion like no-one elses. Her previous beauty and lifestyle ranges have been massive successes and I have a feeling that this one will be no different.


I was so excited to write this months post, for a reason almost everyone will probably know already, but now that I've sat down to write it, I realise nothing else has happened. And it's very hard to structure a whole post around one event without waffling on like I tend to do, and like I am doing now.

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